The trouble with today is that it’s too long, or not long enough. Or that even in the present we are all too focused on the future, or the past. When these 4:00am thoughts hit you in the middle of the day, yup that’s when you’ve hit a brick in the road. (the art on the left is inspired by Rookie mag, a fabulous website if you are not yet aware of it).
I was listening to Pandora Sykes and Dolly Alderton’s new podcast the The High Low (it is incredibly well put together and worth listening to) and they were discussing that this is an age where millennials are faced with more opinion than fact, where ‘fake news’ is ever prominent in the media thanks to Trump. Slightly unrelated to their podcast but the fact is that change is inevitable but it is what do with that change, mould it to fit to your life and vision for the future that is your opinion and for you to take what you mean from the fact that is ‘change’ is different for everyone.
You can choose to ignore the inevitable but eventually it will catch up with you, or you can make everyday count and do what you love with the people that make you the happiest because life isn’t worth spent chasing people who don’t make you truly happy. And it isn’t worth regretting letting the people you truly love slip away. Living in the future and thinking about the future with goals is even better but not if it depreciates the value of the present.
I presume that, like myself, a lot of people have become consumed in thinking that even if something once made you happy, it always will. And that’s simply not the case.
[ Our mind is a cave,
and love a torch,
To light up the empty spaces,
to see the stressed out faces,
to cry at the memories you’ve created.
But the battery will run out,
Blanketing the mind in obscurity.
You didn’t realise the batteries were rechargeable,
because you failed to look
as you replayed the things you couldn’t change
and ignored the thing you could. EC ]
I will most probably look back at this post and regret what I wrote, written in a period of teenage angst I think the unequivocal feeling is that if there’s doubt in your mind don’t do it. In the pursuit of happiness one can make reckless decisions yet those reckless decisions may have the power to make something beautiful. Whether this post is a thing of artistic genius or mediocre thoughts expressed through words on the internet I’m not quite sure but I can tell you that if you want to do something that you’re crippling afraid of – that might be a good thing.
Lots of love, eleanor //