Speaking into the void is like writing something for someone to read and that person not reading it. Sometimes I think that writing a blog is like speaking into the void because perhaps, the person I really want to read this post never will. But then I think that every time I write a blog post, it is always the reader that I didn’t intend it to have an impact on, that the post has the most impact.
After five months of having film on my film camera, it was after one of the snow days that England was blessed with recently that I finally finished the roll and eagerly took it to my local Boots to print. There’s some really cute photos, a lot are with my friends from my birthday and I didn’t really want to put them up so there’s basically an amalgamation of different pictures from a trip to Oxford in October to a school trip to the BFI and the South Bank in London around Christmas time (spot the Christmas tree if you can). There’s something about film that is so definite and it holds a longevity to it that is all so often absent from photos on a phone.
I downloaded Moment this week, an app that monitors your usage online. For times in which I need more than just a little boost of motivation to do college work I have an app called Forest, where you plant a tree for a certain amount of time and if you go on your phone during that period the tree dies. It is pretty great for not going on your phone but when I’m not doing college work: how much time did I actually go on my phone? So I downloaded Moment just to see and gahh I spent 3 hours on my phone on Saturday. It doesn’t seem like a huge amount but 3 hours? That could be spent reading, writing, baking or even watching a film and actually paying attention to what is happening rather than just on my phone the whole time. The possibilities are endless. I’ve since then found I can probably limit my time on my phone to just over an hour a day, that includes my daily French Quizlet sesh, checking social media and talking to friends and the occasional email (although I mostly use my laptop for emails) – but I really don’t need to go on it more than that and even as a blogger I don’t think there is a huge need to spend overtime scrolling through Instagram – perhaps then you are just scrolling to fill the void of something else?
One of my latest reads has ‘When Breath Becomes Air‘ and I’m going to have to write more about it in another post but wow that book has changed my perspective on living and the way we view life. It was as much a literary genius as it was a philosophical masterpiece. I’m going to recommend it to everyone I meet and I’ve already lent it to me best friend to read because of how moving yet eye-opening it is. I link it to this post because if the author Paul did not write his memoir, we may have never known of what an inspirational man he was. It raises the question of how sometimes great people are not always broadcast through the media, yet it doesn’t make them any less great nor does it mean that their views are spoken into the void. I mention the book alongside the apps to aid the absence of online activity because just because you’re not online it doesn’t mean your voice isn’t being heard, it may be that you have a different audience. It just so happened that Paul Kalanithi. It just so happened that his audience was to become on the global level.
Do you sometimes feel as though you are writing/speaking/thinking into the void? I’ve always wanted to curate a blog that has a sense of purpose and indeed that every blog post should have a message whereby you, the invisible or visible reader can learn something or find something new or speculate (hopefully more of the philosophical kind over normal incredulity) over what has just been read. I would like my blog to be a constant conversation, a discussion about issues that matter in the world. Although sometimes I may write feeling as though I am speaking into the void (my Bilingual Book Club is an example that conjures such feelings) that is quite the opposite, there is such an influence online and whilst making one’s voice heard can be a challenge at points there is a huge capability to speak not just into the void, but to an audience of plenty.
lots of love, eleanor xx